Nooks and Crannies

Has anyone else ever had the feeling that something was just... Missing? That something -should- be there, or was there once, and now there's just this odd kind of emptiness? Like you'll never really be able to move on until it's fixed? Anyway, that's just something to think about.

I was reading some philosophy the other day, and I came across this in a book quoting Nietzsche's The Gay Science, and it struck me as... Well perfect, really.

"Aph. 341 The greatest weight.—What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: "This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more; and there will be nothing new in it, but every pain and every joy and every thought and sigh and everything unutterably small or great in your life will have to return to you, all in the same succession and sequence—even this spider and this moonlight between the trees, and even this moment and I myself. The eternal hourglass of existence is turned upside down again and again, and you with it, speck of dust!"

Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: "You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine." If this thought gained possession of you, it would change you as you are or perhaps crush you. The question in each and every thing, "Do you desire this once more and innumerable times more?" would lie upon your actions as the greatest weight. Or how well disposed would you have to become to yourself and to life to crave nothing more fervently than this ultimate eternal confirmation and seal?"

Would we want our lives to be done unto us over and over again? Would we want the past to simply play back like a broken record, stuck on a single track? Are we contented enough with whatever lives we are living to be happy with have it "once more and innumerable times more?"
What would you do?
What ~could~ you do?
And again, what seems to be at the root of everything, Are you "Happy"?
Looks like you'll have to find your own answers again folks. Just something to keep in mind from little old Apathetic Me.

"What win I, if I gain the thing I seek?
A dream, a breath, a froth of fleeting joy.
Who buy's a minuets mirth to wail a week?
Or sells eternity to get a toy?
For one sweet grape who will the vine destroy?"
~ William Shakespeare

Ps~ I have a blogger app now, so I might be posting more often.